New Year, New Way

Originally Posted on January 2, 2015

Where were you at midnight?  Most of us spend weeks planning the perfect answer to this question.  Making sure we are at the perfect place, with amazing food and drink, great music and surrounded by the people that we love.  Last year I had just that.  A fine whiskey in hand as I watch one of my favorite bands in a small music venue with my boyfriend by my side, ready to be kissed at midnight.  Looking back, it amazes me how much can change in a year.  

My personal health was in jeopardy, with the precancerous cells in my cervix returning worse than before the surgery which was meant to cure it.  My sister was diagnosed with stage IV cancer.  And the boyfriend, so willing to kiss me last new years, had broken up with me.  This all prompted a cross country move, leaving behind jobs, friends, and any sense of stability I had left.  

So as this new years rolled around, I asked myself: Where do I want to be to ring in the new year?  It would have been easy enough to find a good whiskey, a good concert or even a cute boy to kiss, carrying on the traditions of the past.  But as I thought about how I want to live my life, none of these traditions seemed to align.  So I decided to start my own tradition.

This year I spent New Years Eve at home, alone, and yes, by choice.  I turned on some music, grabbed some essential oils and my favorite tea, and at midnight I began 108 sun salutations, a yogic tradition of devotion.  I'd heard of other's doing this for solstice or other significant events but never had I attempted it myself.  After less than an hour and less than half of my sun salutations complete, I got tired.  My practice was getting sloppy.  So I honored that, I hadn't stayed up that long in a while, so I went to bed.  When  I woke up early the next morning, with no hangover in site, I went right back to my mat and finished what I had started.  I took my time, I honored my body and by 9am I had finished all 108 sun salutations.

It wasn't a grandiose event, but I realized, one by one, step by step, I can do anything I set my mind to.  It took discipline, but more so, a willingness to be OK with being alone on new years.  It was probably more challenging mentally than physically.  But as I look to the new year and what I want from it, I am ready to challenge myself both physically and mentally, to ask the tough questions and face the difficult truth, to love, to learn, to change and grow, to find new traditions that align with who I am and who I want to be.

Happy New Year's Everyone!  Wishing you a happy and healthy 2015.

With Love and Light, Courtney