Shine Light Health

Slow Down

Originally Posted on September 3, 2015

 

"Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why."  -Eddie Cantor

 

I have learned many important lessons in the last year of my life.  One of the most important lessons is to slow down and take time to really enjoy this life.  So often we find ourselves rushing through our days, from one appointment to the next.  There is never enough time and there is always a list of things to do that we never quite finish.  We believe the more we do, the more we will get done.  But what if the opposite is true, what if we accomplish more by doing less?  Sounds nice right?

Well, that is exactly what I have discovered over the past few months.  I started my Shine Light Journey nearly two months ago.  I heading to Chicago to see old college friends, Indiana to visit my brother, Kentucky to celebrate my sister’s birthday, Tennessee to see good friends and Texas to reconnect with friends I hadn’t seen in over 6 years.  It was great to see all of these beautiful faces and have inspiring conversations with all.  But when I got to Colorado something shifted.  I realized I needed to slow down, get grounded and focus a little more on myself.  I visited my best friend and then spent a week camping in the backcountry.  Serendipitously, I found my way to Valley View Hot Springs, nestled in the Sangre de Cristo Mountains overlooking the San Juan Valley.  I took on a volunteer position as the Discovery Host in exchange for a beautiful place to call home for a few weeks.  

Here, I have been able to slow down.  I get up early, do my morning meditation and prayers.  I enjoy an outdoor yoga practice and a soak in the hot springs.  Every morning I find time to turn to the rising sun and in the evenings, I make sure to enjoy the sunset.  I have stop worrying about deadlines, timelines, appointments and dates.  I have learned to be present in this moment and not rush to get to the next.  It is one of the most healing places I have found on this journey and I am blessed to be here.  Somehow, slowing down, reconnecting with nature and taking the time to be present seems like healing to me.  It has helped me to reconnect with my purpose, to focus on what’s most important and let go of the rest.   To me, this is a healing environment, much more than a hospital could ever provide.

With Love and Light, Courtney

Shine Light Health

Shine Light Journey

For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn't understand growth, it would look like complete destruction. -Cynthia Occelli

In 6 months, the man I thought I would marry broke up with me, my sister died of cancer at the age of 34 and I lost my home not once but twice (we will get to all of that). Now here I am at the gynecologist's office awaiting what I can only assume to be more bad news.

See, several years ago I was diagnosised with HPV, a sexually transmitted disease that effects 1 in 4 women and probably just as many men (there is currently no approved test for men). The doctor said, "Let's wait and see if it clears on it's own." So we did. The virus created dysplasia (mutated cells) within the cervix and they assured me it would lead to cancer unless we did a procedure to remove the inner lining of the cervix. Trusting the doctor, I agreed. While it did clear the problem, it returned a year later, worse than before. That's when I realized the doctor's approach was a cover up of the symptoms and I needed to get to the root of the problem. I denied another procedure.

Waiting at the gynocologist's office, I was hoping for the best and preparing for the worse. My fears were confirmed. The dysplasia was still present at a rating of CIN3 (there are only 3 stages, before it becomes cancer). I explained to her that I didn't want to do another procedure and was hoping to explore alternative therapies. She spent the next 20 mintues lecturing me on how natural therapies don't work. And that if I didn't have the procedure done, I would get cancer. The only other option she offered was to "pop out a couple babies real quick" so she could give me a hysterectomy. Seriously! So one month after my sister died of cancer, I found myself with the possibility of facing the same disease. (Take a deep breath now.)

I listened to the doctor spit her statistics, explaining that 95% of HPV cases clear themselves. I am of the 5% that did not. Of those 5%, the procedure I had clears 98% of cases. I am the 2% that did not.  I asked her if she would be willing to monitor me as I explored alternative therapies. Her fear of getting sued for malpractice was so great (even as I assured her I had no desire to sue her and didn't even have a lawyer), she wouldn't agree to keep me as a patient unless I agreed to the procedure. I explained I don't believe in the procedure. She said it's not about belief, it's about scientific fact. She's partially right. Whether it's chemotherapy or an herbal remedy, if you don't believe in it, it won't work. However, it is wise to back up your beliefs with scientific research.

So, here we go. This blog is my story, a love letter, a research paper, the proof behind my beliefs and the chronicles of my journey as I learn to take back control of my own health, let go of the shame associated with HPV, and find a path to healing that I believe in. My hope is to share my story so other's feel more comfortable to share their own. I want to educate other's so they have more information to make decisions about their health. I want to empower people to connect with their intuition and trust in the amazing healing powers within each and every one of us.  

With Love and Light, Courtney